Shut your eyes as they blind them.

Shut your mouth as they take away their voice.

Shut your ears as they make them scream.

But don't shut your soul as they will never shut the lights of Mujahidin's souls.

Pray and make doa.

Salam Eid Mubarak.

Forgive us for not be able to be there for you.

Forgive us for not coming to aid you.

As the only thing that we can do now is to make doa.

#PrayforGaza

Things we lost in the fire.

We lost our souls
Upon waves of fire came to claim
Smokes of existence in the skies
When it is raining pain and suffering
The things that we lost in the fire

We lost our souls
As our hearts start to rot

We lost our hearts
As our humanity starts to decay

Things we lost in the fire
There's nothing but ashes now.

Mountains I seek, oceans I swim.
Peace I found, in every sujud I did.
I reached a dead end,
Took a way out, to find another renaissance.

Bismillah.

Heart's on fire, leaving all behind
Dark as night, let the lightning guide you
Step outside, gonna step outside, I'm gonna step outside
Heart's on fire in the warming rain.

Ingin rasa dunia sebelum terlambat
Mencari inspirasi, biar akal berehat
Orang kata cuci mata, aku kata cuci rasa
Biar hati yang berat jadi makin sasa.

Why Violin?

"Kau terpengaruh dengan cite poyo je nii..."
"Apa tu bang? Gitar ke? Oh, violin...ingatkan perempuan je main benda tu..."

Yes, these are some of the reactions when I started learning to play the violin.
I'ts sure hard, but I will never give up. I'll tame you. I will play a violin score for my family and friends.

The Spiritual Refugee's Journey - Chapter 1: The Rise of The Thinkers

17th Century, Rene Descartes, a philosopher and mathematician outlined a clear distinction between one's mechanical body with it's thinking mind or what she called as the soul. The rise of many thinkers and philosophers in that particular century has given birth to the modern day psychology studies. Different from today's studies, psychology back then focuses on the difference between the body and mind - the study of the unconscious mind VS psychical reality, insanity VS genius, emotions, insights, intelligence, archetypes and the list goes on and on.

So when people defined the physical body, mind and soul - what they can actually conclude was only what they experienced and observed. Studies over studies, experiences over experience - lead to man made conclusions. Our logical mind will interpret repeating events as facts in which represent the limitation of our mind to provide semantics and understanding towards life's experiences. So why think when our mind has limitations?

Like explorers in the deep ocean, thinkers should understand their limitations and prepare accordingly. Prepare your oxygen tanks based on how deep you want to go. Prepare your suit based on the pressure that you will encounter. Prepare your equipments based on your objective. But even with all that, you will always need to stop, and get back to the surface. Ocean explorers need to have the abilities and capabilities to rise back to the surface, or they will risk dying in the waters - as their preparations and equipments loses their functionality over time. Everything has it's limit. Including our minds. The only difference is most divers will have their oxygen's level indicator as guidance, whereas most thinkers does not equip themselves with an 'indicator' to remind them. 'Hey, this is your mind's limit. You should stop now and re-think again'. And in result - make them 'drowned' in their own self-conclusion. Thinkers are not wanderers. Thinkers are explorers.

The search for God

For me, the minute that we can think straight, our mind genuinely look for the one thing that are above others - God. Who is He? Where is He? Is He Jesus? Is He the Sun? Is He A Mythical-like creature sitting on a pedestal? Is He up there in the space? Or down in the Ocean? The questions about God inflicted many events in our human history; the born of nations, cultural shift, war, life, death. It's in the very basic of human's natural instinct - to look for a greater power that started everything. People started looking - without thinking. They looked up at the skies and kneel down to a giant burning star. They looked at the stars and praised to each one of them as individual gods. They claimed the life of a person - and made him a god. Different concept of god has been put into placed - Oneness, Theism, Deism, Pantheism, Dystheism, and many more. Many also have concluded and acknowledged the concept of Atheism - a belief that rejected the concept of god.

The divinity of God in One Surah

Here I am, trying to talk about God in one page of blog - when God himself explained to us about this in a surah with only 4 verses. The beautiful Surah Al-Ikhlas from the noble Al-Quran. Read, understand and think. Be the judge of your belief:

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

112:1

Say, "He is Allah , [who is] One,

112:2

Allah , the Eternal Refuge.

112:3

He neither begets nor is born,

112:4

Nor is there to Him any equivalent."

One. The Eternal, Supreme Power - incomparable.

Thinkers - Rise Now.

I remember seeing the 'RISE' posters for the movie The Dark Night Rises (Batman). They inflicted a feeling of enthusiasm to wake up and challenge the problems (in the movie context, rise to fight Bane and the daughter of Ra's Al-Ghul). Maybe something have inflicted the mind of many today - to rise and questions their belief. People read, people think and make their own conclusions. That's how the mind works - in a shallow level. What these people lacks are the understanding of the conscious and unconsciousness. Many people think that they make decisions on their right mind - but what they don't realise that most of the time, their decisions are based on their unconsciousness.  For example; we want to questions our religion by defining it as 'belief'. 'Belief' is what most people will used to describe their religion - unaware that the word is weak and can directly be challenged. A stronger, unbiased conclusion can be made if we define religion in a context of a stronger word, for example, by using the word 'faith'. Unconsciously, the term 'faith' is more complex to define and the process to diminish the religion is longer. Do take note that these are just examples, a metaphorical situation to explain how most of the time, perceptions and conclusions are made based on unbiased definition that we used - in this case when we define religion.

RISE now, but start with the right mind. Start thinking but don't jump into conclusions. Start slow and finish strong. For anyone out there that would like to start to question their belief, do consider below steps of preparation - Insyaallah your mind will be at peace to start questioning.

1. Start with YOUR OWN FAITH. Not others. Master and define your religion first before starting to venture to other religions
2. Understand the concept of divinity
3. Explore what are the relations between God and time, space & matter
4. Ask the right questions to the right people
5. Your mind has it's limit. Know that. Seek guidance from the right people

So? You think you have the 'Thinker' spirit? Rise now.

The Spiritual Refugee's Journey - Pre-Chapter: Divinity VS Logic

There's a reason why I'd mention Divinity first at the title above. For me, if one would like to start exploring the different concepts of religions of the world, he or she should understand and define the term Divinity first. Understanding the semantics of Divinity will answer most of the logical questions that many people asked. For example, why would we try to be good when Allah wrote that we would enter Jahannam (!!نعوذ بالله من ذلك) on the Luh Mahfuz already? 

Allah blessed us with the power of Akal (mind). The ability to think, analyse, make decisions, explore and understand. It is a magnificent gift, but same as other creations of Allah, has it's own boundaries. The human's mind perceive logic faster than it can understand eternity. Why? Because our brain receive consciousness elements and feelings faster than our unconsciousness - in results our mind are easier to believe what is in the eyes, rather than what it is in the heart. When I say 'heart', it is not the physical-organ heart in our body, but I'm referring to our soul. Our soul, the Azali of our soul is to be connected to Allah. Our physical instinct may be the air, food and water. But our soul's instinct are to find the One. Over time, through experiences and learnings, the outcome of the search varies for each person.

This is a journey, walked by a Spiritual Refugee. Written in a sense of a born Muslim, still finding a place in the Dunya; the world of calamities and hardships. From a perspective of a thinker, trying to define our journey through the different realms. Bismillah.

The Arrivals of The Birds - Orchestra

Bismillah, mohon play lagu di atas untuk menghayati tulisan kali ini. Hahaha.

Saya menulis kali ini ingin menyimpulkan kata-kata, membuat kesimpulan 12 bulan tahun masihi yang telah pun tamat. 

Klan Salleh Samad

Tahun ini tahun besar bagi ahli-ahli Klan Salleh Samad. Kakak kedua melangsungkan perkahwinan dengan suaminya, Alhamdulillah pilihan yang dibuat InshaAllah baik. Saya menarik nafas lega kerana mereka membuat keputusan untuk tidak bersanding, cukup Majlis Nikah dan kenduri semampunya, penuh dengan kemuliaan Islam, bukan tradisi Melayu. Kakak yang sulung sudah kembali ke Malaysia, walaupun bakal terbang semula ke Oman cukup masa nanti. Tinggallah 4 jejaka terus berdiri dalam rumah pusaka.

Loceng tahun baru paling susah untuk saya kawal perasaan. Marhumah Radziah bt Abd Rahman tersemat dalam hati. Jiwa masih pilu, rindu yang teramat. Al Fatihah and I miss you mak.

Nagarian

Working in an Advertising Agency is tough. 2013 jadi saksi Shukri Salleh struggle sebagai seorang eksekutif jenama. But I'm proud of myself. I'm a survivor and still a student. Tersedar kerja hanyalah kerja dan ia adalah salah satu bentuk Ibadah. My works are for you Allah. Every seconds of my works I dedicated for You, I hope my words now are sincere and true. Guide me Ya Allah. Guide me.

Tahun baru dengan semangat baru. Inshaallah perlahan-lahan saya mengorak langkah untuk membuka perniagaan sendiri. Aset dan modal sedang giat dikumpul. Sekali lagi mengharap pada Allah. Doa, Usaha, Ikhtiar dan Tawakal - DUIT kata Pencetus Ummah Thowi.

Shukri Salleh

The last photo of myself in the year 2013.

May Allah bring prosper and protection to my Iman.

May Allah honour me with good rezeki and relationships among people.

May Allah guide me to the right path of the Ad Din.

May Islam prosper throughout the world.