The Thousand Caves (Mount Mulu & Mount Api)

Seribu kamar menanti.

Buat mereka yang abadikan kegelapan.

Dari kiri kanan Gunung Api,

Dari atas bawah Gunung Mulu,

Buat mereka yang ingin lari dari cahaya,

Melangkah ke seribu kamar Mulu.

Dan indahnya kegelapan kau saksi.

Sebelum Segalanya Hilang

Laungkan kata semangat kerana cinta yang hangat,
Apabila kisah kita hanya tinggal berita,
Aku tinggalkan segala-galanya demi cinta.

Kerana aku tahu aku tidak sempurna ilmu,
Tidak sempurna serba segalanya,
Hanya membawa hati yang hilang.

Yang sesat membawa rindu yang malang,
Indah sekejap tapi sakit selamanya.

Selamanya seperti tergantungnya nyawa,
Antara Syurga dan Neraka.

Dimana kamu?
Aku disini, berdiri mencari cahaya.
Di atas puncak, aku terus sesat.

Dimana kamu?
Aku masih disini, menanti.
Kerana aku tahu aku ikhlas.

Dimana kamu?
Sudah terlambat, sayang.
Kerana aku hilang selamanya.

Dimana kamu?
........................

Dimana?

Hymm.

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Corriendo es Spiritu

After finishing the 30km Merapoh Forest Run 2015 for Male Open Category.

I started running 3 year ago (almost), and I never really stop since then.
I remember my first run -  on the road heading to the Great Eastern Mall from my house. I never got comfortable running in a park or on a treadmill in a gym - mainly because of there are too much people and activities flocking into those places. Other than photography and writing (and annoy my girlfriend), I do not have other hobbies back then. In the spirit of trying new things, I decided to run. Putting on my training shoes, walk to the front gate, and off I go, heading towards Ampang through Jalan Ampang, from Jelatek. I do not do much research on how to run the right way, so the moment my feet hit the tarmac, pain strikes right to my legs, knees, hip and eventually causing exhaustion to my body.  But there was a strange feeling that I felt, the feeling that made me want to run again. The feeling as if your body are communicating with you and the constant battle that you feel between your mind and your body. I ran 1.5km that day before i hit the wall.

Running was part of my life since then. I continue running and try my best to run faster and longer. My running passion has evolved when I started to hike on mountains and hills.

"The Mountains are calling and I must go."  One of the reasons why I wake up so early in the morning on weekends and holidays - to run on a hill or a mountain. Why embrace the pain when you can just stay at home, or just chill in a mall or coffee shops? The answer is easy - to feel and remind myself to be human again.

3 years ago, my weight was 79 kilograms. After 3 years of running, hiking, climbing and all sorts of outdoor activities and adventures, I stand on the ground with a weight of 65 kilograms. Never in my life I have inflicted pain (indirectly) to myself to discover the limit of my body.

One thing for sure Insyaallah, I will continue running and embrace adventures. To feel human, in this disastrous 'civilized' world.

In the past 3 years, I have changed, or more like evolved, into this.

Next post will be the running story.

4 life changing moments for me:

1. You
2. Running
3. Hiking
4. Climbing

Embracing adventures (including moment number 1) changed my life forever.

Nature is amazing, our body is amazing, love...is amazing. That's what I've learned from all those 4 moments.

Travel more. Embrace Adventures.

Puisi Kasar untuk Pemimpin Kasar.

Kau perbodohkan rakyat,
Dengan kebodohan sendiri,
Tunggu sampai kau jadi mayat,
Tengok mana kau nak lari.

Bila kau ingat kau raja,
Kau lupa atas kau tuhan,
Kau berlagak bersahaja,
Tapi tidur kau keresahan.

Jika semua runtuh,
Kau tunggu kami cari,
Walau daun hijau sudah luruh,
Kau kami gantung sampai mati.

Aku angkat jasad kerasmu,
Pelukmu erat dalam dakapanku,
Mata hitammu merenung aku,
Air mataku jatuh ke badanmu.

Kecewa kerana tidak bersamamu,
Ketika kau dalam diam menahan sakit,
Ketika aku tidak mampu melihat,
Saat mengharap kau berlari ke arahku.

Habis hatiku luluh,
Pelukmu erat dalam tanganku,
Aku berjalan ke arah pohon buluh,
Dimana ke tanah aku lepaskanmu.

Dalam dakapan PencintaMu, sayang.
Lenalah kau dalam ciuman PencintaMu, sayang.
Bahagialah kau dalam pelukan Malaikat, sayang.
Kerana tangan aku tidak mampu lagi mengusapmu.

Fighting depression is harder than I thought it will be.
Surviving is a different story altogether.

Your head is spinning, your eyes are heavy.
Your body is standing there, but your mind are closing in.

And at the end of the day, your body feels like it just fell down from a mountain.